BEN: I was an Army infantryman deployed in 2004 to 2005 to Sadr City, Iraq. [TENSE MUSIC] [EXPLOSION] - Get him, boys! [GUNSHOTS] BEN: There was 19 of us in 4 Humvees that were hit with a large-scale ambush. I think a lot of us believed we weren't going to get out of there. I got hit. When the bullet came through the wall, it wasn't just the bullets that hit me. It was chunks of concrete and metal. I figured we would die. I started having panic attacks, pretty heavy ones. And they pulled me out. Eventually, they sent me to a place called the combat stress center in the green zone. I went in for the mental evaluation. The lady who did it told me you've got PTSD. It's fairly severe. It said personality disorder. And because it was a "pre-existing condition," they were going to take my bonus back, my re-enlistment bonus. I basically got out with a paycheck. I went through multiple, multiple jobs, whether it was physical things, my neck and shoulder that caused me not to be able to continue or it was mental health with panic attacks while working. I went through, I think 13 or 14 in the first couple of years. We ended up filing for bankruptcy. Lost our vehicles, all kinds of stuff. I can pick him up. I felt like it was a huge blot on my record. I was ashamed of what happened. I figured it was my fault, I had done something wrong. I've been told by Vietnam vets they were doing the same thing to Vietnam vets in Vietnam when they came home. And I-- it really bothers me to think they might still be doing it now. Personally, to me, it would mean that they didn't think I was a screw up, which it might sound silly but I'd like to know that. For whatever reason, it really bothers me that they threw me away that way.